I am a Sweetheart to One and a Mommy to Four Loveable Babes, one of which is smiling down on us from Heaven. I am learning to dance in the rain. Come with me on my journey as I make the most out of Life's mud puddles.

Put on your rain boots. Great adventure lies ahead.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Kozy Kids Korner by Gracelyn

This week's Kozy Kids Korner is from our little Gracelyn. We love her so much and are so grateful that she is willing to share some of her precious feelings and memories of her little brother. (Please be generous with your comments. She is anxious to read the responses. Thanks.)

I love Bennett so much. I wish he didn't have to leave so early. He only lived for 1 1/2 years. He was my best friend. I will never have a better brother than him. He is always
around me when I feel sad or when I am scared. He will never leave my heart.

When Ashton took his cars, Bennett would always squeal. I would say, "Ashton, no! Give that back to Bennett!" He was my pal. He always wanted to sit on a big chair like the big kids. We would use our shower as our Kids Clubhouse and we would all get in together (the brothers and sisters) and hold hands as we walked in a circle singing "Kids Club Members". It was our song. He was part of our club.

When he would cry at night and I would hear him, I would go in his room and sing "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" or "One Two Three Four Five I Caught a Fish Alive."

In this picture, you will see that Bennett is trying to take off his helmet. I was going to ride my bike but then my dad said "Hey, come get in the trailer with Bennett" and so I did what my dad told me to do cause I make good choices. I want to be like my Dad and Mom when I grow up.

When we were at Disneyland, he went to our grandma's house. We got Bennett a Car shirt. Next time we go for a trip, I will for sure get Bennett a present. I will never leave him. And he will never leave me alone.

He liked animal crackers and he loved yogurt. Sometimes I would share my frozen yogurt with him. He is the best brother I will ever have in my life. He would
jump on the tramp while I holded him. He liked ice cream, going to grandma's house and Aunt Katie who was his girlfriend. Every year passing by I will never stop loving my sweet Bennett Boy.

Bennett's birthday is May 31st. His birthday is only three days apart from mine. At Costco I saw an Elmo book that I want to give him for his 2nd birthday. If he were here right now, I would read the book to him right away.

I will never stop loving him.


  1. Thank you for sharing all of your sweet memories of your brother. I think you are going to help more people than you will ever know! It is so wonderful to see the great love you have for your brother and I know that it really touched my heart.

  2. Gracelyn, this was really sweet! I love frozen yogurt too! I know Jesus loves Bennet so much and will give him a big squeezy hug every time you ask Him too. So many people pray for your whole family Gracelyn, I hope you feel that and even when you are sad, you can feel warm, safe, and loved. Because you are.


  3. Gracelyn~ I love your sweet tribute and memories of Bennett. He is such a special boy and I remember how I felt when I held him in the hospital when he was born. I can't wait to share your post with Lauren & Brianne when they get home from school. You and Emma are their dearest friends. They miss their sister Madilyn, who died too. You are a wonderful girl and the whole Hodge family loves you very much!!! ~Heather

  4. What a wonderful sister you are! I loved reading your sweet memories of Bennett. Thank you sweet girl!

  5. Gracelyn, what a wonderful post! I love how you remember the little things about living with him, because those are the things that will keep in your heart every day like you said! You are such a sweet sister and he was is so lucky to have you;)

  6. Dear Gracelyn, Bennett is so lucky to have you as his sister for eternity! What a sweet girl you are. What special memories you have of Bennett. I am glad you can still feel him with you, like a guardian angel. Give your mom and dad a squeeze for me. They are wonderful! Thanks for sharing!
    Love Jenny B.

  7. I have never met you, but I can tell from your memories of Bennett that you are a great big sister. He is lucky to have you! I can't wait to meet you soon when I see you at my brother's wedding. Give your mommy a big hug for me. Thanks for your good example.

  8. What a good big sister you are! It sounds like you were very protective of him, and that is very sweet.

  9. what precious memories! you are a wonderful big sister!!

  10. Gracelyn,
    I just loved reading your memories about Bennett. You are going to be such a wonderful mother when you grow up, because you are such an awesome big sister... I hope you continue writing on your mommy's blog... I can't wait to see what you write next... Thank you for being such a wonderful girl, and for being such an awesome example to everyone!

  11. Grace you are SUCH a SWEET sister!! I smiled while reading about your love for you brother Bennett. You really were, and ARE, the sweetest of friends :) I loved reading about your trip to Disneyland and how you bought Bennett a Cars shirt, and how you'll always think of him on your trips and think of things he would like :)

    LOVE you so much Gracie!!! You make me one lucky aunt :)

    Aunt Haley

  12. Gracelyn,

    First, I am so so sorry that you lost your little brother. You and your family are in our prayers!

    Well, that was one of my favorite posts yet! Why? Because I love how you expressed your love for your brother. You are such a good big sister. You will always have each other. Always!

    You will be so glad that you wrote down those thoughts about him. I bet you'll want to read them in the future. I think you should keep writing down your memories and thoughts about him. He'll love that, and so will you.

    Thanks again for your sweet post. I loved reading every word!



  13. Gracelyn,

    Thank you for sharing what is in your heart! I loved that you stood up for your baby brother when Ashton took his toys and included him in your Kids Club and sand him songs when he was upset at night! I know he really will always be in your heart -- and he will be so excited to see you when you see each other again in Heaven!!! I hope that my children will be as good of friends as you are with Bennett! And I am so proud of you that you make good choices and want to be like your mom and dad! I have no doubt that you will! And that is exactly why I am sure you will be with Bennett again some day! Hugs tonight and prayers and love always!!!

    Melinda :-)

  14. gracey!
    What wonderful and sweet thing to say about your baby bennett. he is lucky to have such an awesome family and a wonderful big sister such as you. I know bennett is watching out for you and will be proud of you when you make good choices.
    thanks for your example and your sweet post. I look forward to hearing from you again.

  15. Thanks for sharing your memories Gracelyn! What a sweet big sister you are!

  16. Gracelyn,

    These were all beautiful and very special memories that you shared of your brother, Bennett. What a love you have for one another!

    Thank you for sharing these moments with us that come here to read about your family. You are a ray of sunshine - just like your mommy!

    Keep writing and remembering....these memories will always be so precious to you and those you share them with!


    p.s. I have known your mom since I was a little girl. In fact your Grandma Kjar and my mom knew each other in college! We have known your family for a long time & we love all of you so much! Here is a hug all the way from NYC where I live with my family. Hopefully we can meet this summer - we will be visiting where you live and would love to see your family & my children would love to meet & play with you!

  17. Gracelyn,

    What a beautiful story about your brother. I'm sure you guys were best friends. I have a little brother too and when he was little I would sing him songs too. Always remember the sweet moments you shared together. Bennett will always be with you and protecting you.


  18. Gracelyn, You seem like the greatest sister alive! Any little kid would be lucky to have you not only as a friend but as a sister. I love to hear your stories and memories, so thank you for sharing them! You are very lucky to have such wonderful parents and to have even got to know Bennett. I wish I was as lucky as you! I don't doubt one bit that Bennett still plays with you and watches over you. And one day you two will get together again, and you will share your stories and laugh and laugh, and Bennett will love it! Keep sharing your stories, memories, and thoughts!! You have a great little heart... and brain ahhahah! Seriously, you are a smart girl!



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