Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Note to Self
Whenever you put something online, you have no control of what happens from there.
Yesterday, I went out on a limb and shared a very personal story of how our blog came to be. Accompanying our story, I shared an even MORE personal montage of photos and videos of our family at Bennett's viewing/funeral/burial. While I hesitated posting it (due to its personal and tender nature), I finally decided to go forward based on the sensitive way my sweet friend photographed our tenderest of moments. Nothing alarming or jolting. Just peaceful.
At least, that is how I saw it.
Though this little blog has been up for a month now, I still have mini panic attacks regarding us being so public with our Grief. At times, I want to close up shop and do the private blog route again.
Today was one of those days.
Without going into much detail, I came across a thread today where some spoke quite critically of my openness and - in particular - the video we posted of Bennett's viewing. I in NO WAY mean to parade our grief to get attention, adulation or notoriety. If you think that, you simply don't know me. I am simply following a prompting. Period. End of sentence.
That said, thanks to so many of you who see this blog for what it is. Thank you for those who have shared their love, hope and faith so willingly with us. Thank you for those that have cried with me while reading our story. I hope some of those have been happy tears and that they have reminded you (as they have me) of the true meaning of Life and where we can find our greatest Joy. May we all give each other the benefit of the doubt and trust that we are all trying to do our level best to keep our heads above water.
I did not choose this path. It was chosen for me. But I will not shrink from the promptings I have received. I will protect my family first but I will also continue to share our journey, our faith, our hope and our joy.
Because that is what Life is about.
Note to Self.